Thursday, February 20, 2020

Untitled Post Series ~ true stories

They say that you can change how you feel or how you want to act.
But, for me, I can't.
It's like pressure builds up inside me when I'm angry but it builds up into anger as well.
The pressure pushes like waves crashing at me,  until finally... it all pours out.
I start to push my feet to the ground, at first.
Then, I just use pressure in every part of the body.
until I have an outburst.
Smacking things.
I can't control it.
Like 2 different people are inside of me.
I silently cry myself to sleep as it feels as I contemplate to myself..
All the bad things I've done, and the consequences life will give me for them. Yet, consquences are necessary.
I think about how things are going wrong for me. It's not about me though, life isn't centered around me.
How I want to be nice.
One thing, just one.
Can change my attitude within seconds,  and I don't do this on purpose. I swear.

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