They say that you can change how you feel or how you want to act.
But, for me, I can't.
It's like pressure builds up inside me when I'm angry but it builds up into anger as well.
The pressure pushes like waves crashing at me, until finally... it all pours out.
I start to push my feet to the ground, at first.
Then, I just use pressure in every part of the body.
until I have an outburst.
Smacking things.
I can't control it.
Like 2 different people are inside of me.
I silently cry myself to sleep as it feels as I contemplate to myself..
All the bad things I've done, and the consequences life will give me for them. Yet, consquences are necessary.
I think about how things are going wrong for me. It's not about me though, life isn't centered around me.
How I want to be nice.
One thing, just one.
Can change my attitude within seconds, and I don't do this on purpose. I swear.
Thursday, February 20, 2020
Sunday, February 16, 2020
Not Everything is as It Seems ~ Episode 2
Sweetie?
The echo went through my cavernous house.
Sweetie? Sweetie? Sweetie? Sweetie? Sweetie?
I looked around, to answer the call.
But, it was as if darkness had filled the room,
And the pitch black as pitch as a squid's ink.
BEEP BEEP BEEP.
I swatted my alarm clock like a fly.
It was just a dream.
I walked away towards the door, yawning.
I got ready, and finally walked to school.
I wore some tights, because my overalls were still in the dryer.
and a blue shirt with a kitty that said, "You're purr-fect!" I didn't care what people thought.
I was tired of everyone.
That day I was in the clear,
Yet, everyone was staring.
It felt like their eyes no matter what direction I went in, they followed like chick following it's mother. I thought.And within seconds I was knocked out, I saw cherry red stains all over the school, the moment I awoke. But, no one was at the school. I screamed. But, just like my dream, it echoed, like I was in a cavern. Suddenly, I was in a dark room, that smelled like cleaning supplies? I realized, I was in the Janitor's Closet. I screamed for days. I tried to open the door but, it was locked. Finally, after the weekend. The janitor came back. He opened the door, surprised to see me with my hair in curls and my eyes wide open, I looked like I hadn't eaten in years.
Just as I was about to leave,
BEEP BEEP BEEP.
I swatted my alarm clock like a fly again.
This felt like a time loop.
Awakening, awakening.
One second it felt like real life then a dream.
And then a fire...
Deep in the distance.
I suddenly got trapped, trying to save my parents.
I screamed like I had for days.
But, suddenly, everyone disappeared.
And again.
BEEP BEEP BEEP.
....
BEEP BEEP BEEP.
....
Why was this happening?
Finally, things became normal.
And my eyes looked worn out.
By the end of the time loop,
I was as skinny as a person who hadn't eaten in years.
Because, I noticed through the time loop.
No matter what it was, I never ate.
Suddenly, I felt someone grasp me and some say, I disappeared that day.
Then... how am I writing this... you ask?
:)
Monday, February 10, 2020
My Weekend, News Report Callisto 2/10/20
(By Jamie Collins) Ha, ma name is Jamie. And A come from the wast! I love chicken, what bout' you? Well... anyways. Ma mama and I went to a barbecue and we enjoyed reading Over The Mountain Top. Anyways. I wanted to let ya'll know it's about 58 F*. It's shore is a nace day! Well, darly bees! A may have even saw a Bubkins maself. Anyways, If y'all wan't to write about your own day just contact Melonplayz :D for it or say in the comments! Jia Jia's first blog, keep writing! I love your stories
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Melonplayz :D: Stay Safe! Peace out! See ya in the comments!
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Saturday, February 8, 2020
Not Your Average Student ~ Part 5
There was a time. When, *sigh* life goes up.
Whenever you think your life is perfect!
The perfectness turns to nothingness.And I... wish life wouldn't do that.
But, I swear, you will see a pattern.
Whenever you think your life is perfect!The perfectness turns to nothingness.And I... wish life wouldn't do that.
When I was just... a wee little girl...
I was so happy to be with my real father.
I wish people wouldn't suddenly have to get so emotional because LIFE
just does that,
Do you ever wish that...
You... I don't know... had an ultimate supply of luck?
Because just when life gives you the good luck, they hand you the bad.
Not Everything is As it Seems Episode 1
(Hey guys! I got you guys a first person story)
I want ya'll to know that this is my story. My name is "Maggie" or so it was...
Just ignore that! I will explain later.
I lived with my parents and they were awesome and kind. They treated me like an angel.
And I loved them.
To my surprise, and maybe yours, they never fought. Even when I wasn't watching.
I thought it was unusual to fight, for parents at least.
I am a very sarcastic girl.
I mean... There was this one girl who bullied me for wearing braids. On a casual day I wear ocean-colored denim overalls and I love to draw, but I suck at it, I have a light yellow hair color that shines like gold in a pot.
But enough about how I look.
My life was, well... an ordinary life!
I come from brazil.
I wish that I could say I had a picture perfect life.
I actually did. But, everything is not as it seems.
Ya'll know the saying Don't cry over spilled milk right?
Well, that was the saying that ruined my life.
Well, first off I had a friend.
She was actually the one who drew that picture.
She committed... I don't want to talk about it.
She was an artist. She had me and another girl. Although, she didn't hang out with me as much.
So, a boy came up to me and literally spilled milk all over my new denim overalls. They cost $25.00 and my parent's usually don't take me shopping out a lot cause they don't want me to get to spoiled.
I wasn't about to cry right then and there because of that, duh! He actually got some in my eye and shouted, "What a SpOiled BRaT, Oh! Did I ruin your $350.00 overalls, SO YoUr CRYING?!" The whole school bursted into laughter. They know how kind my mother and father are so, I guess I'm considered a spoiled brat? "Well, back off! Because your life is so perfect, some bullying wouldn't hurt, would it?!" The boy said. "#$%*#, you listen here now you are assuming because I have freaking overalls I am a brat?" Everyone gasped in surprise. They thought I was clean and innocent.
Some girl then screamed, "You think you're cool for saying that? We say that everyday. You aren't even in our league, saying cuss words is goin' to ruin your picture perfect reputation." The room was silent. Until, someone said, "That's not true---" A teacher came and saw milk on my clothing. "MAGGIE, PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE NOW! JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE RICH. DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SPILL MILK ON SOMEONE ELSE."
I tried to talk... "NO, NOW!"
"YOU ACCIDENTALLY SPILLED IT ON YOURSELF, HUH?"
"No, miss, Jonathan spilled it on me and said I was a brat--"
"YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THAT! FRAMING PEOPLE?! JONATHAN IS MY SON! HE IS AN ANGEL!"
Jonathan smiled innocently. Then, he stared into the depths of my soul and stuck out his tongue.
I hated everyone. But, that didn't ruin my life, yet.
The next day, anyone who could tripped me and said, "Oh, honey, you don't need to cry over spilled milk." My mom noticed me even once coming home with scars. She was disappointed and for some reason she assumed I was fighting people. Why was everyone assuming?
I want ya'll to know that this is my story. My name is "Maggie" or so it was...
Just ignore that! I will explain later.
I lived with my parents and they were awesome and kind. They treated me like an angel.
And I loved them.
To my surprise, and maybe yours, they never fought. Even when I wasn't watching.
I thought it was unusual to fight, for parents at least.
I am a very sarcastic girl.
I mean... There was this one girl who bullied me for wearing braids. On a casual day I wear ocean-colored denim overalls and I love to draw, but I suck at it, I have a light yellow hair color that shines like gold in a pot.
But enough about how I look.
My life was, well... an ordinary life!
I come from brazil.
I wish that I could say I had a picture perfect life.
I actually did. But, everything is not as it seems.
Ya'll know the saying Don't cry over spilled milk right?
Well, that was the saying that ruined my life.
Well, first off I had a friend.
She was actually the one who drew that picture.
She committed... I don't want to talk about it.
She was an artist. She had me and another girl. Although, she didn't hang out with me as much.
So, a boy came up to me and literally spilled milk all over my new denim overalls. They cost $25.00 and my parent's usually don't take me shopping out a lot cause they don't want me to get to spoiled.
I wasn't about to cry right then and there because of that, duh! He actually got some in my eye and shouted, "What a SpOiled BRaT, Oh! Did I ruin your $350.00 overalls, SO YoUr CRYING?!" The whole school bursted into laughter. They know how kind my mother and father are so, I guess I'm considered a spoiled brat? "Well, back off! Because your life is so perfect, some bullying wouldn't hurt, would it?!" The boy said. "#$%*#, you listen here now you are assuming because I have freaking overalls I am a brat?" Everyone gasped in surprise. They thought I was clean and innocent.
Some girl then screamed, "You think you're cool for saying that? We say that everyday. You aren't even in our league, saying cuss words is goin' to ruin your picture perfect reputation." The room was silent. Until, someone said, "That's not true---" A teacher came and saw milk on my clothing. "MAGGIE, PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE NOW! JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE RICH. DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SPILL MILK ON SOMEONE ELSE."
I tried to talk... "NO, NOW!"
"YOU ACCIDENTALLY SPILLED IT ON YOURSELF, HUH?"
"No, miss, Jonathan spilled it on me and said I was a brat--"
"YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THAT! FRAMING PEOPLE?! JONATHAN IS MY SON! HE IS AN ANGEL!"
Jonathan smiled innocently. Then, he stared into the depths of my soul and stuck out his tongue.
I hated everyone. But, that didn't ruin my life, yet.
The next day, anyone who could tripped me and said, "Oh, honey, you don't need to cry over spilled milk." My mom noticed me even once coming home with scars. She was disappointed and for some reason she assumed I was fighting people. Why was everyone assuming?
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